Happy Days

I'm happy. That in itself should be enough said. Glen surprised us both by coming home before noon yesterday. Although I think I was more surprised because I was sitting around in my pj's, considering sorting wash when I heard the front door unlock. My first instinct was to take a look, if worse came to worse I would dive back into the bedroom, lock the door and wait for help. I was pleasantly surprised to see my baby standing there! He apparently had had a lot of stress at work that day, with the heart attack looming only a little over a month ago his bosses decided they could handle things for the day, they called in a stand in for the weekend so he wouldn't be on call. Knowing them though, they will make him work extra to make up for half a day.

But, happiness was what the day was about. In trying to allow him cool down time, we cuddled for a while until he was sound asleep. Baby needs more sleep, he doesn't get enough! He ended up sleeping close to two hours. We had lunch of fresh home made herb flat bread and salad. YUM! After allowing him a few more hours of relaxing we had a yummy dinner of Mexican stuffed peppers... all low fat and healthy of course. Black wild rice, lean meat, onions, chopped peppers, cumin, chili powder, cayenne pepper for a kick and a small dollop of sour cream to cream it up. Stuffed the peppers and baked them for a half hour. He even had a glass of wine. Spoiled man!

We got our small grocery shop done which was much less stress than normal. Thank god for a holiday next week! That's 2 days of meals we didn't have to plan or shop for! We have a weird mix of food this week, so it should be interesting!

My whole weekend does feel off though. It feels like Sunday and not Saturday! I like having the extra time AND having him only work 3 days next week too! As for now, we need to get a move on. Haircuts, small holiday shopping, and a few small errands are on the list today!

blog on :D

Read more...

Did I miss something?

This morning I woke up, turned the coffee maker on, booted the laptop and checked FB as per usual. What I saw shocked me. I see my 17 year old posted a picture of her new car. I say new because she previously owned a Nissan truck in a gorgeous silver. Tricked out. Now she ALSO owns a 2010 Camero my uncle bought for her. This is the same uncle who is always singing poverty, tight fisted with his cash, so tight that he drives a truck nearly as old as me. I'm 24, j2s.

So here I am, 24, fighting day to day to make it. Feeling a little sad because I move and suddenly when I need them the most, my family forgets my birthday. Apparently she gets a Camero, a MAC, and a wave runner. I could see if she was the sort of kid who helped out around the house, was generous to her family... had a job? No. She's 17, gets what she wants, is currently grounded because she was being irresponsible with her current car and she bad mouths her parents. I wish just once my aunt would read her Facebook and see what a total bitch she is. I'm so green with envy I feel like being a tattler. SIGH

The moral of this story is, find a decent balance while parenting. Love your kids but don't spoil them into thinking that they deserve to get everything handed to them.

wtfever. Can someone cut me a break? Spoil me just once?

blog the eff on.

Read more...

Ring me out..but feed me good

Another day, another dollar. I feel like all anyone wants is money money money. I haven't got any. Literally. Yesterday I spent the afternoon on the phone with Allstate. They had sent me a bill for an insane amount of money that mad absolutely no sense. After an hours of trying to work with someone who spoke English as a second language, I finally got through to the main mess up. Apparently when i transfered my insurance to FL someone made a booboo. I paid first and last month at the time of transfer. Low and behold, I was not suposed to pay this until now, a month later. So rather than make a notation of this, they tried to pretend like I had never paid it. The man on the phone mumbled something about the bill being sent out after the payment was made...I smell bull sh*t. He claims that the bill was sent out *after* I made my payment. Except, I made my payment before the date it says on the bill. So clearly someone just screwed up. At least I don't owe anything until Dec. 27th now!

Add to this my phone calls with hospital billing departments sending out bills for things i already paid for in full a month ago. Annoyance. Does no one do their jobs anymore?! Seriously, I feel like half the time I'm speaking with someone new or just stupid. Putting me on hold for a half hour or mumbling does not make me go away, it only makes me pissed off. As I battle the unemployment game I intend to know where every cent of my money is going. But those two examples are not even my worst...

Banking. Now let me get this straight. You pretty much can't live without a bank account because so many people take only plastic or checks or money orders. You now intend to *charge* me money to keep a bank account. Honestly if my bank from Pa was anywhere around here I wouldn't leave them. But they aren't, so I went to a new bank in the area... Let's call it... Regional..(ha) The woman I met was great, boasting about their bank procedures, free checking, blah blah blah. I sign up, drop my last check in their bank and I feel pretty good about myself. Then right after I sign on the dotted line she turns and says "Now remember to keep this checking account free you must keep a minimum of $500 or 12 transactions." EXCUSE ME. Then she goes on to explain how if i don't they charge anywhere from 5-25 for the account a month. WTF. SO now I frantically look for another bank. The other 2 closest banks... lets call them Bank of Americus and Chase-aftaya both do the same thing. I think I may have to jump on the Wachovia band wagon and hope for the best.

I might just open a Chase account because it offers me 150 to open it... money is money.


In more happy news I made an excellent dinner last night. I so love the combinations of weird foods that turn out amazingly delicious.Drum roll please......

Cranberry Chicken Enchiladas....

I varied from the recipe a bit to make it a little less fattening/sodium containing

2 chicken breasts
1 can whole cranberry sauce
1 cup mexican blend cheese
taco sauce
8 low sodium low carb tortillas
3 tbsp fat free sour cream
1 cup black beans
1 green pepper chopped
1 onion chopped
cumin to taste
chili powder to taste
1 large baking pan
1 large bowl
tin foil

As I use fresh beans I soaked them over night. I precooked my chicken in the morning by adding a quarter can on cranberry sauce, water, cumin, chili powder and chicken breasts to my crock pot. Cooking it on high for 2 hours and low for an additional 3 made them extremely tender. I pulled the chicken out and shredded it with a fork setting it on the side until I needed it again. The remaining juices I put in a separate container.At the same time I added the beans and roughly 5 cups of water to a large pot and simmered them for 2 hours.

Next, an hour before you plan on eating you preheat the oven to 350 then take your chicken, 2 Tbsp sour cream, a few dashes of taco sauce, half the remaining cranberry sauce, green peppers, onions, 1/2 cup cheese and mix it together in a large bowl. Take out your tortillas , placing a heaping table spoon of the mixture onto one end of the shell, roll tightly from the filled end to the empty end to seal in the mixture. Place rolled tortillas seam side down in your large baking dish.Continue until you have rolled all 8 tortillas.

Now take the remaining cranberry sauce, 1 Tbsp of sour cream and a dash of taco sauce. Mix this together in a small bowl and spread the mixture on top to the rolled tortillas. Cover with tinfoil and bake for 45 minutes. Pull the pan out and carefully remove the tin foil. Sprinkle the remaining cheese on top and bake an additional 5-10 minutes or until fully melted.
-----------
Honestly the combination grossed me out at first and ended up being fantastic. The sweetness added with the zing of taco sauce was fantastic. The original recipe called for turkey, salsa and corn tortillas. For us we got low sodium low carb tortillas. The best we have found in our area is La Banderita. Chichi's and all those other brands have nearly double what these have in regards to the bad stuff! 1g fat, 200mg sodium, 23g fiber. I still don't love the numbers and would be open for suggestions. We used taco bell taco seasoning which is about 40 mg sodium.

Hope you enjoy. Blog on :)

Read more...

Waste my time.

Seriously. Our apartment complex made a big deal about there being a safety inspection this week.They went around and posted notices letting us know they would be here from 7am-5pm ish. and would need someone to let them in. G and I spent the night cleaning up because we were unsure how invasive they would be.

I woke up early and did a final run through this morning. I waited...and waited. Waited some more. Finally, about 10 minutes ago there was a knock on the door. Two men from the inspection company. The older gentleman walks into my living room holding a clipboard. He turns to the other man and asks how many bedrooms. one. Large or small? Large sized. Then he turns to me, thanks me for my time and they leave!

That was it. I kid you not. They made a huge deal out of a 2 minutes intrusion. 2 minutes that caused me to wake up early. Stress about the large pile of laundry I have yet to start. I'm sincerely annoyed.

Read more...

Yes Dear

Recently I have found myself doing a lot of "Note to Self" and "Dear..."

Maybe I should just change the name of this blog to Yes, Dear.. haha

This is pretty much my thought process today:

Wake up:

Note to Self: remember to remove eyeliner before bed. You look like a racoon.
Dear Keurig, please make my coffee extra hot.

Cleaning the kitchen:

Dear garbage disposal, You smell. I need to dump some lemon rinds down you soon! wtf is that stank!?

Dear kitchen, how do you get so messy in one simple day?!

Dear dishwasher, why is it you suddenly start to fail. what am i doing wrong?!

dear maintenance crew, you said a WEEK. Today marks a week since you were last here and we sure as hell know you aren't going to show up over the weekend... So when exactly are you going to fix my oven?! One can not live on a heart heathly diet out of a toaster oven alone..

Note to self: buy sponges STAT

Shower:

note to self: razors. just... razors

Sitting around planning my day:

Dear neighbors, we've already been over you fail on halloween decor... thank you for finally removing your mushy pumpkins.

dear neighbors... have you had your baby yet?!

Dear mr squirrel picking at my mint plant. GET AWAY!

note to self, vacuum

SO yea... thats pretty much the notes that go through my head all day. half of them i forget anyways haha

Read more...

My life today.

So after that last post, I am feeling a bit better. This new healthy lifestyle is taking time to get used to.

Today:

Breakfast: 1 protein shake (banana, protein powder,fat free plain yogurt 2 tbsp, 4 ice cubes and a splash of calcium rich orange juice.)

Snack: 2 pieces of home made unseasoned beef jerky. 10 almonds.

lunch: will most likely consist of spinach salad. yumm

dinner: acorn squash or spaghetti squash. depending on my mood

I need to cut up some of the 3.5 lbs of top sirloin that we bought this weekend. it made awesome jerky this time around!!

Read more...

10.9.2010-A past day reference.

So, Saturday on the date stated above, my fiance had a heart attack. He is only36. It turned out after a morning of running around and finally realizing we needed to get to a hospital, that he had a 90% blockage in his left anterior descending artery, known fondly as part of the "Widow Maker". He could have died. Since then, they put in one stent, then had to replace the first one because it was not fully extended. I have spent 12+ days sitting bedside until they sent him home yesterday.

Yesterday was stressful and only added to the growing tension I have been feeling. After dealing with Doctors and nurses that would not tell me anything I was left terrified that if something happened again, because we are not married or blood they would just leave me there. Add to this I have become a horrible person.

I know that he was very sick. I know it was him and not me. And yet I can not help feeling a little pissed off at everyone in general. It seems that suddenly these people are popping up at of the wood work. No one called before, no one checked in, And suddenly I have all these people around pretending they give a shit, pretending that they are the ones who saved him, they are the ones who sat bedside, slept in horrible chairs while he recovered. Thats me. Just because they showed up once, for one day and talked about themselves the whole time, does not mean they suddenly give a crap. It pisses me off to see myself dismissed like that, or to see that fake caring they throw at him. I can't help but feel jealous, which i know is rediculous and I am being as bad as they are by making it about me. But aside from actually having the heart attack, it IS about me too. I'm the one who he is going to marry. I am the one that all the responsibility gets piled on later, and the one who would get blamed if something went wrong. I have to spend the rest of our lives (god willing) watching this.Worrying.

On the flip side of that, my anger is extended towards him as well. I thought after my mother passed on, that i was free. It sounds horrible but after 12 years of illness, 5 of those spent in my care, I was finally able to live my life without worrying about how to fit someone else's issues in my basket. I'm tired. I need a break and from one I get the other. God knows I love him, god knows I will stand by him no matter what..It's just...frustrating.

I'm going to go off and finish my egg whites omelet now.... and continue being a bad person. yup...

Read more...